Tuesday, November 30, 2010

(got this from PostSecret)

sounds like me :-/
"Reputation is what men and women think of you.  Character is what God and the Angels know of you."

Monday, November 29, 2010

Missing the Barcelona v. Real Madrid game since I'm at work. Oh, the agony.


played around with a pic...hadto make a visual to the line stuck in my head.
many of us wear masks to hide our feelings, thoughts or intentions...lift the mask and BE.
"Let us not pray to be sheltered from dangers but to be fearless when facing them"- Rabindranath Tagore

Desk Calendar Quote for the day:

"Everyone has inside of him a piece of good news.  The good news is that you don't know how great you can be! How much you can love! What you can accomplish! And what your potential is!" - Anne Frank
I guess it's time for you to kick rocks...

Tuesday, November 23, 2010

"Shake Em Loose Tonight" by Rumspringa performed LIVE

Love this song...

swaying to life's melody,
my soul is drowning in the ocean of wonder.
the blanket of stars is waiting to cover
the eyes of this mad lover.
hold my hand as i journey through the layers
of this universe.
where we are right now, is not where we'll remain.
so let us dance through the clouds
and swim in the rain.
let the breeze sweep us away
and take us where we dream of.
a place where there is no looking down,
only ascending above.
this, around us is a temporary illusion,
don't let the material feed you delusion,
as it will only hold us back.

come, let's journey on life's path,
no before or after,
but right now...

"One regret dear world, that I am determined not to have when I am lying on my deathbed is that I did not kiss you enough.” - Hafez
I stood with the pious
and I didn't find any progress with them.
I stood with the warriors in the cause
and I didn't find a single step of progress with them.
Then I said,
`O Allah, what is the way to You?'
and Allah said,
`Leave yourself and come.'
~ Bayazid Bastami~

"The thing we tell of can never be found by seeking, yet only seekers find it." -Bayazid Bastami

Bob Dylan

Desk Calendar Quote for the Day:

"We need quiet time to examine our lives openly and honestly...
spending quiet time alone gives your mind an opportunity to renew itself and create order." - Susan Taylor

Monday, November 22, 2010

"Love is like an hourglass,
with the heart filling up
as the brain empties”
-Jules Renard
"Love comes when manipulation stops; when you think more about the other person than about his or her reactions to you. When you dare to reveal yourself fully. When you dare to be vulnerable.”
-Dr. Joyce Brothers
"Better to avoid the poison altogether than to heal from the damage it causes."-unk

Thursday, November 18, 2010

Desk Calendar Quote of the day:

"Misery is a communicable disease." - Martha Graham

Ain't that the truth!!!  When you're immersed in such negative energy, you spread it to those around you and nobody wants to be around people who constantly drag them down.  We all have our ups and downs, but when its constant and unchanging, it's not something you want to be a part of.  So don't worry, be happy.  :)
Cut my heart with love
and let it bleed.
It's not what I want
but what I need.

Wednesday, November 17, 2010

"true friendship isn't about being there when it's convenient, it's about being there when it's not."-unknown
"Sometimes you put walls up not to keep people out, but to see who cares enough to break them down."
"If you put a small value upon yourself,
rest assured that the world will not raise your price."
- Unknown

Desk Calendar Quote of the day:

"Reach high, for the stars lie hidden in your soul.  Dream deep, for every dream precedes that goal."-Pamela Vall Starr

Monday, November 15, 2010

Weeping willow,
She moves to the breeze.
Never breaking,
she dances with ease.
Through storms unexpected
And sunshine’s tease,
Weeping willow
Gracefully hides her broken leaves.
I call her Weeping Willow,
just like the trees.

"Being defeated is often a temporary condition. Giving up is what makes it permanent."-Marilyn Vos Savant

Eid Al Adha Images

Love these pics from Boston Globe and Washington Post blog post I came across about Eid.  Enjoy...

The devil’s done turned me out.
I said, the devil’s done turned me out.
All of this madness I could do without.
I now know what this was all about.

He teased me with forms of good intentions,
Made me feel comfortable going in this direction.

I confused him for an angel,
Didn’t bother with character dissection.
Things felt like they were in place,
No need for further reflection.

The devil’s done turned me out.
I said, the devil’s done turned me out.
All of this madness I could do without.
I now know what this was all about.

Sometimes I still think he means well,
Maybe that’s just the effect of his evil spell.
Can’t believe how hard I fell,
Hiding behind an Angel’s disguise,I couldn’t tell,

He was the hidden cause of my silent cries
While he'd dry the tears from my hopeful eyes.

The devil’s done turned me out.
I said, the devil’s done turned me out.
All of this madness I could do without.
I now know what this was all about.

Running from myself and everyone too,
What am I supposed to do?
Don’t want him to find me again and push me down,
I just don’t want the damned devil around.

Hey Devil, won’t you go away?
Leave me be, I’m here to stay.

The devil’s done turned me out.
I said, the devil’s done turned me out.
All of this madness I could do without.
I now know what this was all about. ©

(Outside of my window this morning)

During Summer nights I heard crickets chirping outside,
in Autumn I hear the leaves falling.

Desk Calendar Quote for the day:

"As long as one keeps searching, the answers come." - Joan Baez

Friday, November 5, 2010

Wednesday, November 3, 2010

It's about that time to once again put pen back on paper. I'm wondering what's to come.  It is the unknown that makes life so painfully beautiful, bittersweet, exhilirating and mysterious.  Life is a suspenseful rollercoaster ride on it's own, a mystery novel in action and a movie in real-time.  Let's journey...
"You are never alone or helpless. The force that guides the stars guides you too.” - Shrii Shrii Anandamurti
Reminding myself today 'that every little ting is gonna be allright', insh'Allah.   :)

Hope your day is as beautiful as you are. 

"When the power of LOVE overcomes the love of POWER,
the world will know PEACE"
-Jimi Hendrix-

Quote of the day from my desk calendar:

Tuesday, November 2, 2010

I see God come in my garden, but I don’t know what he said,

For my heart it wasn’t open….

Not open…

out loud thoughts

Fueled off of a delicious espresso and some mallorca sweet bread, along with listening to Muse, R.E.M and some Red Hot Chili Peppers on my way into work, my nafs is in quite a state I must say. 

Being one who thinks to herself a lot and keeps everything in, I randomly have moments where I explode with random thoughts or things I need to get off my chest.  Right now is one of those moments.

Being referred to as a Hijabi Hippie, sometimes called Mother Teresa or other funky stuff, I can't help but wonder why.  Actually, I think it's awesome.  But in some ways that backfires I think.  I don't try to be a Mother Teresa, I just give a damn about people usually or like to help some people feel better or happy because I know what it's like to be down in the dumps or in a dark place and have craved someone to take me out of it.   Yes, I know that is what the Creator does, but I'm talking on a low level, so if anyone wants to go down that route, please spare me that talk. 

Often do I find people using my kindness or forgiveness or patience as a way to use it against me, selfishly.  People get used to me forgiving them, or brushing things off, being patient and they almost get spoiled by it.  Because I try (though of course I struggle horribly and fail miserably) to better myself, people that don't care for such things, always like to call me out as if I'm proclaiming to be something great or saintly.  No, fool. I'm not.  Maybe I just want to better my pathetic self and stop failing so badly and make a change since the current state I'm in isn't too fun nor is it doing anything great for me. HELLO!  I'm sorry, I can't sit around every day living the same old mundane lifestyle and pretend life is perfect the way it is and that I'll just continue this horribly boring cycle for the rest of my life.  No thanks.  I have my tests in life, I have my actions to account and so do you.  I'm not going to stop trying to better myself, because I'm sorry--my Creator means a whole lot more to me than you're accusations or assumptions or desires.  I dislike selfishness, yet we are all selfish in our own ways.  It's our nature and it's our ego to fight against.  Don't count yourself out like you are the chosen one that has no responsibility.

Those who are so used to me being all mystified and nice, think they can keep doing what they've been doing and I'm just going to stick around and be the same way I was before...keep dreaming.  I am a living being and I also have a mind of my own.  AKA--wake up and smell the roses...

I'm going to do what I gotta do and make sure every day I'm living, I try to make it better somehow and leave it in a way that if I don't wake up tomorrow, I won't wish I 'woulda, coulda, shoulda'. 

I'm nice, but I'm not a fool. 
And in the end of the day, I'm a hot-blooded Afghan woman so back the hell up.

If ya didn't know that about me before, ya do now.  Swallow that down with water and smile.  Thanks for reading.


Phew. that.felt.great.