Sunday, January 31, 2010

Wednesday, January 27, 2010

My eyes are an ocean in which my dreams are reflected.
-Anna M. Uhlich.

Monday, January 25, 2010

"I'm selfish, impatient and a little insecure. I make mistakes, I am out of control and at times hard to handle. But if you can't handle me at my worst, then you sure as hell don't deserve me at my best." -MM

Sunday, January 24, 2010

Friday morning thoughts

Sippin my tea,
I think of you, little girl.
Staring into the horizon, I think of you little boy.
Watching the trees dance,
I remember you, sister.
Watching the breeze blow, I think of you, my brother.

I'm far away but I've seen the fear in your eyes,
pain in your face
and hope in your gaze.

Where to?

I hear the rain on my window
while you hear screams of terror.
I wish I could bring you here with me.

I cry for you while you cry for your family.
I don't want to see what you see.
But I will try what I can,
to help you,

Thursday, January 21, 2010

Tuesday, January 19, 2010

You were born from the rays of God's Majesty
when the stars were in their perfect place.
How long will you suffer from the blows
of a nonexistent hand?
So come, return to the root of the root
of your own soul.

You are a ruby encased in granite.
How long will you deceive Us with this outer show?
O friend, We can see the truth in your eyes!
So come, return to the root of the root
of your own soul.
Why are you so enchanted by this world
when a mine of gold lies within you?
Open your eyes and come
Return to the root of the root
of your own soul.
Âyam be sar-e-kûye to pûyân pûyân
Rukhsâr be âb-e-dîde shûyân shûyân
Bîchâre rah-e wasl-e to jûyân jûyân
Jân mîdeham o nâm-e to gûyân gûyân

I came to the end of Your street, running, running.
Tears came down my cheek, washing, washing.
Union with You, I am helplessly seeking, seeking.
My soul I surrender while Your name I am reciting, reciting.
-Nizamuddin Awliya-

Saturday, January 16, 2010

Thursday, January 14, 2010

Ay dust hejaab-e to kasi nist to'i
Andar rah-e to khaar o khasi nist to'i
Goftam keh be ma'shuq rasam yaa narasam
Az to bar ma'shuq kasi nist to'i.

O, friend! Nobody veils you, but yourself.
In your path there is no thorn or weed, but yourself.
You said: Shall I reach the Beloved or not?
Between you and the Beloved there is nobody, but yourself.

Couldn't describe it any better

"Oh no, I see,
A spider web is tangled up with me,
And I lost my head
The thought of all the stupid things I'd said.

Oh no, what's this?
A spider web, and I'm caught in the middle,
So I turn to run,
The thought of all the stupid things I've done,

Oh no, I see,
A spider web and it's me in the middle,
So I twist and turn,
Here am I in my little bubble,

They spun a web for me,
They spun a web for me.”

Wednesday, January 13, 2010

random out-loud convos with life

Thank you for reminding me that this world is but the comfort of illusion.

Thanks for reminding me that things are not usually the way we think it is.

I appreciate the humility you force upon me, to show how things I may seek comfort in,
to make myself feel better--is rarely accurate.

Nothing is as it seems....nothing.
I'd be a fool to take it for face value.

Even my heart is misleading most of the time, as well as my memories, thoughts and dreams.

Life, you always appear different every time I put on my pair of glasses to get a better look at you.

With this comfort, my back strengthens and my posture straightens.

Face off.

Tuesday, January 12, 2010

who said when you love,
you love more than one?

who said a lover's eyes
will forever shine like the sun?

who said one will forget
after everything is done?

who said they'll stop me
as soon as I run?(c)

empty thoughts

Crisp like the winter breeze in January,

Empty sentences haunt me.

If I could give just a bit of my thoughts
And feed you my dreams,
Then you would be a part of me.

Things ain’t so easy.

From dawn to dusk,
Dusk to dawn,
I pray to be granted a penny for my thoughts,
To throw in my mind’s well.

No contributors yet,
I wait.

I can’t live in a surfaced world.(c)

Love quotes by Kids

"When my grandmother got arthritis, she couldn't bend over and paint her toenails anymore. So my grandfather does it for her all the time, even when his hands got arthritis too. That's love."
"Love is when you go out to eat and give somebody most of your French fries without making them give you any of theirs."

"Love is when someone hurts you. And you get so mad but you don't yell at them because you know it would hurt their feelings."  
"Love is when my mommy makes coffee for my daddy and she takes a sip before giving it to him, to make sure the taste is OK."
"Love is when you tell a guy you like his shirt, then he wears it everyday."
"Love is like a little old woman and a little old man who are still friends even after they know each other so well."
"Love is when mommy gives daddy the best piece of chicken."
"Love is when mommy sees daddy smelly and sweaty and still says he is handsomer than Robert Redford."

"When you love somebody, your eyelashes go up and down and little stars come out of you."

"You really shouldn't say 'I love you' unless you mean it. But if you mean it, you should say it a lot. People forget, and it's good for them to get reminded."

"There are two kinds of love- Our love & God's love. But God makes both kinds of them. Love is important to God."

Monday, January 11, 2010

Hurricanes of emotions,
Storms from the heart,
My love is the sea
In which only He can part.

Life has not spoiled me
and I don’t expect it to stay.
Right now is a chapter
In the book of today.

Wednesday, January 6, 2010


I am a hypocrite who breathes life.
My actions may not be in the right place,
but my heart definitely is.
You and I have been created to struggle,
which is exactly what I am doing.
Dusk brings me hope every day that I rise,
and as the sun rises,
so too does my soul.
I cling to you just as I cling to tomorrow,
hoping I'll get it right this time.
So know that I am not malicious,
nor do I gain pleasure from my wrongs.
You can't judge me harsher than I judge myself,
for you can't dissect me the way I can.
The reflection in the mirror constantly speaks to me,
reminding me who I am, beneath the smiles,
the poker face and frown.
I see me at night,
before sleep takes me to my temporary death
under the moonlight.
Ask our Creator how a face can become so bright upon waking,
and you shall receive 'Hope' as an answer.
While I constantly stumble on life's path,
we all fall down.(c)
I love the quote posted below.  I placed the quote on a background image of mine and played with the effects.  Such a heavy weight in these words.

Tuesday, January 5, 2010

Solitude is callin' my name...Time to retract.

A misinterpreted issue - Verbal Abuse (link provided)

Many people see Verbal abuse as something very different from the reality of what is actually is.  Many of us have grown up with this, many have received its blows at the workplace, in a relationship, in school, etc.  Verbal abuse has scars left in the mind that last much longer than scars left on the body.  If you disagree with the below information, then what do you define as verbal abuse?  Words leave scars, too.

Characteristics of Verbal Abuse

1. Verbal abuse is hurtful and usually attacks the nature and abilities of the partner. Over time, the partner may begin to believe that there is something wrong with her or her abilities. She may come to feel that she is the problem, rather than her partner.

2. Verbal abuse may be overt (through angry outbursts and name- calling) or covert (involving very subtle comments, even something that approaches brainwashing). Overt verbal abuse is usually blaming and accusatory, and consequently confusing to the partner. Covert verbal abuse, which is hidden aggression, is even more confusing to the partner. Its aim is to control her without her knowing.

3. Verbal abuse is manipulative and controlling. Even disparaging comments may be voiced in an extremely sincere and concerned way. But the goal is to control and manipulate.

4. Verbal abuse is insidious. The partner's self-esteem gradually diminishes, usually without her realizing it. She may consciously or unconsciously try to change her behavior so as not to upset the abuser.

5. Verbal abuse is unpredictable. In fact, unpredictability is one of the most significant characteristics of verbal abuse. The partner is stunned, shocked, and thrown off balance by her mate's sarcasm, angry jab, put-down, or hurtful comment.

6. Verbal abuse is not a side issue. It is the issue in the relationship. When a couple is having an argument about a real issue, the issue can be resolved. In a verbally abusive relationship, there is no specific conflict. The issue is the abuse, and this issue is not resolved. There is no closure.

7. Verbal abuse expresses a double message. There is incongruence between the way the abuser speaks and his real feelings. For example, he may sound very sincere and honest while he is telling his partner what is wrong with her.

8. Verbal abuse usually escalates, increasing in intensity, frequency, and variety. The verbal abuse may begin with put-downs disguised as jokes. Later other forms might surface. Sometimes the verbal abuse may escalate into physical abuse, starting with "accidental" shoves, pushes, and bumps.

These are a few characteristics of verbal abuse. For more information, check out the link provided. 

Monday, January 4, 2010

"People are like stained-glass windows. They sparkle and shine when the sun is out, but when the darkness sets in, their true beauty is revealed only if there is a light from within." - Elizabeth Kubler-Ross

So true...