Monday, November 30, 2009
Tuesday, November 24, 2009
Wednesday, November 18, 2009
Sunday, November 15, 2009
It's me again.
This undeserving "servant", knocking at mercy's door, hoping to be let in.
See, I know I'm not supposed to, but I can't help but to hate myself more than I already do.
Now, being the egoistic, selfish, hypocritical person that I am,
I shouldn't be here again knocking, as I always do...
I need You...
My knuckles hurt from rapping on this door, tap-tap-tapping on this door,
thud-thud-thudding with my fist,
lub-lub-lubbing with my heart,
hu-hu-huffing with my gasps,
for I am losing sensations as I'm being mentally torn apart...
I am falling into numbness once again...
This maniac I have become, torturing myself.
See, I don't even think I deserve to wear this scarf.
I don't even deserve to carry the name that I carry,
for I find my thoughts much too scary,
to be of a "servant" of yours.
I sit here knocking,
waiting for the door to open,
for I need mercy.
in a tortured state