Sunday, November 15, 2009
Knockin on Mercy's Door
It's me again.
This undeserving "servant", knocking at mercy's door, hoping to be let in.
See, I know I'm not supposed to, but I can't help but to hate myself more than I already do.
Now, being the egoistic, selfish, hypocritical person that I am,
I shouldn't be here again knocking, as I always do...
I need You...
My knuckles hurt from rapping on this door, tap-tap-tapping on this door,
thud-thud-thudding with my fist,
lub-lub-lubbing with my heart,
hu-hu-huffing with my gasps,
for I am losing sensations as I'm being mentally torn apart...
I am falling into numbness once again...
This maniac I have become, torturing myself.
See, I don't even think I deserve to wear this scarf.
I don't even deserve to carry the name that I carry,
for I find my thoughts much too scary,
to be of a "servant" of yours.
I sit here knocking,
waiting for the door to open,
for I need mercy.
in a tortured state